Thursday, January 31, 2008

More Pregnancy Stuff

Last night was a very interesting night. I am having some serious pressure and pain in my pelvis. I kept waking up all last night because I was being kicked in my ribs and hip bones. I went to the doctor on Tuesday. I was convinced I had a urinary tract infection, bladder infection or a yeast infection. I know, like you guys wanted to hear about that. When I went in for the exam, they tested everything and I was fine. No issues, but I told the doctor was I having a lot of pressure and that is why I thought it was some type of infection.

She did a pelvic exam and said the baby's head is right in my pelvis. She could feel the head when she did the exam and she said that when she pushed up on it, it didn't move, which means it is pretty much going to stay where it is. This is all very good, but a little painful. I am not dilated at all, which is also good because I need to keep this baby in for at least 3 more weeks, then I will be ready to go.

Last week, I started to have some Braxton-Hicks contractions. They aren't painful, but my stomach just gets really tight. I guess this is a good sign too, that my body is getting itself ready. I am starting to get nervous about the whole process. I can't believe that a baby is going to come out of me.

Dave and I are considering using cotton diapers. There is a company in St. Louis called Cotton Babies . Anyway, cotton diapers are not the same as they used to be, they are much more advanced. I think we are going to go this weekend and check out the place. Anyone else use cotton diapers? Likes? Dislikes? Please let me know.

On a side note, Dave was extremely impressed with the amount of wine that everyone consumed over the weekend. He said it came to about a bottle at least per day per person. I wish I had been able to consume it as well. I am so excited to have a nice glass of wine or a glass of champagne! Yum, Yum! Anyway, that is why I love all my friends and family. You all know how to drink, relax and have a great time together. Did I tell you before how much I miss everyone, because I do!

I need to figure out what I am going to eat for lunch today. I am really hungry today. Have a great one.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Baby Shower

This past weekend I had my baby shower. It was wonderful. We got tons of stuff for the baby and there were wonderful people there to celebrate with me.

I am so tired this week though. It was a little overwhelming getting everything. Now it seems to be more of a reality. I can't believe that it is almost February. Time has really flown by. I am losing motivation to do things around the house and just in general. I am finally enjoying being able to relax, read and not get out of my pajamas all day.

We just got our carpet cleaned, so right now I am hanging out in the basement. I might spend the rest of the day down here because I turned the heat up to 72 so it will help dry the carpet and it is much cooler in the basement.

I will try to post more later.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Boring and Cranky

I haven't been too active lately. I have been really tired and worn out, but I am not able to nap again. I think I have gone a week or two now without napping. I just can't get comfortable enough to nap, plus I am trying to continue to organize the house, so napping cuts into my organizing time.

Yesterday Dave and I saw the new National Treasure movie. It was very entertaining. I liked the first one better, but this one wasn't bad. We aren't going to have too many opportunities to go out to movies after the baby comes.

On the pregnancy hormonal front: I have noticed that I have started to become increasingly more cranky and bitchy. I get these overwhelming urges to just start yelling. Yesterday I had a little bit of a blow up and it lasted about 2 minutes. They are short lived blow ups, but they make me feel so much better. I am not used to not having control over things and being pregnant with this baby has made me have a different perspective on a lot of things. I haven't been able to control anything related to this pregnancy other than the food I put in my mouth and the amount of exercising I do. But the quality of my exercising, my physical being, my aches and pains, my sleeping patterns are completely out of my control. I have finally become comfortable with the fact that I can't control when I am going to have the baby or what is going to happen during my labor (see I have made some progress). All of these things are somewhat frightening because I am used to controlling everything possible.

Back to my blow ups. Dave finds these 2 minutes of my complete out of controlness to be so hilarious. He just laughs at me. Now mind you, these aren't just me yelling, I am normally clenching my fists, stomping my feet, getting red in the face and who knows what else I am doing. To me I feel like I am really getting my point across and I guess to Dave this is very entertaining. When he laughs at me, I realize how stupid I must be looking but I really don't care because I am SERIOUSLY feeling like someone or something has done the worst thing possible and I just want to yell about it. So when he is laughing at me, then I start laugh, which makes me even more mad, but doesn't get me anywhere. By the time I have screamed about whatever it is, then I feel much better and we move on. I know I overreact sometimes, but can't I have a meltdown!

Please everyone beware, you might just witness one of these meltdowns too. Don't take it personally, I really just think my hormones have hit a new level.

Oh another newer thing. The baby is now getting hiccups regularly. I really don't know why anyone thinks this is exciting or cool. IT IS COMPLETELY ANNOYING. Not only do I have a foot lodged in my right rib, but now my body pulsates continuously because the baby has hiccups. Nothing helps either. I drink water, eat some food, lay on my side, sit on the exercise ball, but nothing works. It normally last for about 5-10 minutes, goes away and then comes back about an hour or so later. I love it!

Maybe I will start to like being pregnant soon. I only have about 5-6 weeks left. I am going to try very hard to have a positive attitude.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

I had my doctor's appointment yesterday. I gained 2 pounds. Oh well. I don't freaking care anymore. I only have 7 more weeks to go. I am 33 weeks tomorrow. This is so exciting.

I slept in our bed last night and only peed 3 times. My last potty break was at 2:30 and then I slept until 6:15. So that was very good. I feel so tired today though because that was the most sleep I have gotten in at least a week. The baby has begun to like getting in a ball right under my right rib cage. When I am sleeping or just sitting, I have a huge purtruding hard ball under my rib cage. It is gross and it hurts like hell. I want it to move down.

I had a meeting this morning for the Advisory Board I am on with Woman's Place (a domestic violence organization). Anyway, we were in the middle of the meeting and the baby kicked me so hard in the middle of my ribs, I literrally jumped. It hurt so badly. I think I may be bruised because of that one.

It will be nice when the baby drops a little bit more because then it will relieve some pressure in my ribs.

I am waiting for the contractor guy to come to the house to give me an estimate of what it will cost to put a light in our nursery. There isn't a light in the room and I really don't want to buy a bunch of lamps, so I am anxiously awaiting his arrival. The I have to figure out what I am going to make for dinner, go to the grocery store, then I have a hair cut at 3:30pm. Then I am going to my old office (maybe) because there is a going away party. I really want to go, but I don't know if I wil have time because then we have to be at our birthing class tonight.

By the way, did I mention that we saw a video of a birth about a week ago. Holy shit! Dave was freaking out and it kind of grossed me out too. Not the whole birth thing, but the video. We were watching her labor and the camera was on her face and her husband's face and everything was fine. They were showing how she was controlling her labor and her relaxation techniches, then the doctor came in to tell her that everything was going great and she should probably get ready to push and then all of the sudden it went from a shot of thier faces directly to a vagina shot. I mean full on. I just about died. If they had scanned down and explained what they were about to show, I might have been okay, but it was just in your face. That was the distrubing part. Then they showed the baby being born and the other girl in the class and I were crying. It was like an overhwleming flood of emotion. The girls were crying and the husbands looked like they were about to pass out. It was a great class. Just thought I would share it with all of you too.

I'm out.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Sleeping

I slept on the couch last night. I think I got a better night sleep, but I still went to the bathroom every couple of hours. I didn't feel as bad getting up because I knew I wasn't waking Dave up. I just can't get comfortable at night. It was kind of strange to go to bed on the couch. Dave and I said good-night and slept in separate places and we weren't even mad at each other. Kind of strange, but since he is working and I am not, it is more important for him to get sleep. I can nap during the day if I need to.

I have a doctor's appointment today. I am sure that everything is fine, just have to get weighted and measured.

I don't have much to say today. I didn't do anything yesterday and now I have tons of errands to run today. I better shower and get ready.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Pain Everywhere

So, I had another horrible night of sleep. I am having pretty sharp pains right in between my ribs. It really hurts. I can't get comfortable at night and the baby is the most active it has been in weeks. It is kicking me so much, especially at night. We had a birth class last night and it kicked me the entire time. We are supposed to do relaxation exercises at the end of the session and I couldn't get comfortable at all because the baby was kicking me in my side so much I thought I was going to die. I think a foot keeps coming out of my right side. I almost feel the entire foot. It is a very strange sensation. If I push down on it, it pushes back and I swear it is a foot. Most of the time I just feel huge, but when the baby pushes and kicks like that, it really is pretty amazing that there is actually a baby inside of me. I have a living being inside of me that at this point could survive on its own. Crazy, just mind blowing sometimes.

I think tonight I am going to try sleeping on the couch. I am peeing every one to two hours every night, so I am waking Dave up every time I get out of bed. Then he is snoring in between my bathroom breaks, so basically I am getting only about 3 hours of sleep a night. Not good. So needless to say, I am super bitchy everyday, all day.

Well, the last few things I have to do to clean the house is the kitchen and all the base boards. I think I have cleaned almost everything else. I will have lots of things to clean again before the baby comes, but at least I have the big cleaning done.

Has anyone else had restless leg syndrome while they were pregnant? My legs kill me at night. I mean I want to cut them off. I don't know if it is the exercising that I am doing or what, but at night they hurt so much. I just feel like complaining again today. I am so tired and the baby hasn't even come yet.

I think I am going to bake cookies today. I need some comfort food. I have to go to the doctor again tomorrow and step on the scale again. I am sure I gained more weight even though I have been eat really well and exercising almost everyday. Whatever, I can't do much about it. I am pregnant for goodness sakes.

I am off. Have a great Tuesday.

Monday, January 14, 2008

I am going to try to relax today, but I am not sure if I can accomplish that. Since I have been off of work, I have read two books.
The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and The Nanny Diaries.

The first book was actually pretty good, once I got into it. I think it would be especially good for young teenage girls. It was entertaining and a very easy read. I really did not like The Nanny Diaries. It took me a while to get into and I really hated all the characters. I just was annoyed the entire time I was ready it. If I ever become super rich and treat others with zero respect and act as self-centered as the "Mrs. X", someone will need to shoot me. I was so happy to finish that book, so I would never have to pick it up again. I hated it.

Today I am going to start reading again The Happiest Baby on the Block. I figured I really needed to get back to reading some baby books now. I just have that one and then one on breastfeeding to finish. Then I think I am done with those books.

We have a big book shelf in our basement and Half of the bottom shelf are all the books I need to read. I have borrow about half of them and I would like to give them back to their owners sooner rather then later. I really enjoy being able to read whatever I want. I haven't read a book in several months, so it is nice to start reading again. I will keep you all posted on what books I am reading. If you hear or read any really good books, please comment and let me know what they are and I will get them to read.

FYI, if you want to get really cheap books you can go to half.com. There are discounted books for very cheap. (they also have cd's too).

So I woke up every hour last night to pee. It was horrible. Around 2 a.m. I ran out of toilet paper in the bathroom and there was none under the sink and I didn't want to run all the way down the cold hall to get more toilet paper, so I just used kleenex the rest of the time. Then as soon as I knew Dave was up this morning, I started complaining about how we didn't have any more toilet paper in the bathroom and so he went down the hall to get it. (He was getting up anyway, so don't feel back for him).

This whole peeing thing is really a pain. I want to go back to sleeping all night. I guess it will be a while for that to happen.

Does anyone or did anyone have horrible pelvis pain, where it felt like your pelvis was splitting apart in the middle of the night when you were or are pregnant? When I sleep on my side and then roll over to get out of bed, I have to sit for a while because if i move to quickly, my pelvis feels like it is going to split open, then if I start walking I feel shooting pain in my back. After a few minutes it goes away, but it is just the initial few seconds when I get out of bed that are horrible. Anyway, I just felt like complaining about that too.

I am off to watch the today show and figure out what I am going to make for dinner with ground bison. Yum Yum!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

I might be getting a cold

The weather drastically changed here, from very nice and warm to freezing cold. We hadn't need to use the heat in the house until yesterday. So I started to not feel so well yesterday. Also, the baby has gotten much much stronger. It stopped kicking a lot and now is just stretching out all the time. It is pushing so hard on my ribs and on my sides. In the middle of the night last night, it hauled off and kicked me so hard I woke up and yelled. Then it kicked me again really hard. I thought for sure I woke Dave up, but he said he didn't hear me.

It is getting much more difficult to sleep now. I just can't seem to get comfortable or stay asleep for long periods of time. I am also going to the bathroom every 2 to 3 hours. I can't seem to stop drinking water though. I wake up and pee and then drink some water. I know that it isn't a god idea, but I am so thirsty. Anyway, not too much longer before the baby will be waking me up and not my having to go pee.

So did you guys know that there are red oranges? Not blood oranges, but red oranges. I went to Dierbergs and got some fruit and I didn't realize that I had picked up red oranges. They are so good. I think they are better then regular and blood oranges. If you see some, you should buy it.

I organized all my recipes yesterday and took out cookbooks so I can try to figure out what meals to cook for dinner. It is so difficult to have to think of something new and different every night. Plus Dave and I are trying to be healthier. So we are trying to work out everyday and eat really healthy. This started last week after I got weighed at the doctor and gained a ton in one month. We both feel so much better. Hopefully Dave is losing weight and I am just sustaining my weight. I don't want to gain anymore.

I think I am going to go relax and then start doing more cleaning around the house. Does this ever end?

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

I am getting so big

So I just downloaded some newer pictures of me and the baby room, etc. I was looking through pictures that we had previously taken and I have grown so much. I wouldn't normally do this, but I think it is crazy to see how much I have grown in such a short period of time.

So here is the first picture, I am 16 weeks, so about 4 months, this was taken the end of September:




Then this is the picture that was just taken this past Sunday. I am 30 weeks in this picture. WOW!



It is amazing to me, how much someone can change in just 3 or 4 months. No wonder I am so tired.

You know what is sick, I can't even fit into those shorts in the first picture anymore. I can't wait to get back to normal.

Monday, January 7, 2008

I can't seem to sleep in anymore. I was up wide awake at 6. I was waiting for the alarm to go off so I could wake Dave up. It was in the high 60s yesterday, so it was very hot to sleep last night. I was sweating like crazy. Today is supposed to be about 70. I think I may just have to take George for a walk. We will see how motivated I am.

I already made a list this morning of all the things I wanted to do today. I don't think I will ever run out of things to do.

So yesterday my stomach was killing me all day. It wasn't really my stomach, it was my uterus and skin. I felt like I was splitting in half. I think the baby is growing again. There isn't a ton of kicking anymore it is just very hard pushing, like that baby is stretching out and trying to find space. There isn't much there anymore. I left my camera upstairs, but maybe later today when I get organized I will post the latest picture of how big I am getting. I am just not sure how I am going to be able to stretch 9 more centimeters.

Today I have to call the pediatrican and phtographer. The pediatrician we chose doesn't go out to Barnes Jewish Hospital, which is where we are now delivering. Highway 64/40 in St. Louis is completely shut down from Ballas to I-170, so a lot of docotor's are refusing to go to certain hopsitals now because they fear they wouldn't be able to get there quick enough. So my OB-GYN will not go out to Missouri Baptist and the pediatrican will not go out to Barnes. So, now we have to figure out what to do.

I better get motivated to make all my phone calls and run all my errands. I poop out around 2 or 3 everyday.

Have a great week.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

I didn't post yesterday, but I wanted to wish my brother a belated 27th birthday! Even though we saw him last night and went out, I thought I would post it anyway.

Today I am feeling much more relaxed. I slept in until about 8, well I got out of bed at 8. I was up at 6. I am tryign to force myself to get more rest. it is difficult. I have been dreaming about work and I can't seem to stop. I think last night was my first night not to dream about trying a case. Something is seriously wrong with me.

Today the goal is to re-organize the basement file cabinets. I brought home some much stuff from the office and it really neds to be organized. I figured this might be a two day project, but I really need to get started.

This weekend Dave and I are cleaning the garage out. It also needs to be organized and tons of stuff needs to be thrown away.

We had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I am measuring 30 weeks, which is right on time. The baby is already head down and kicking the shit out of my ribs. I think I will be deformed on my right ribs when this is all over. I put on a little too much weight this month, so I really have to be better about eating and exercising. My heart rate is so high already, so when I get on the machines, but heart rate is so high it is like I am already exercising. Anyway, I went to the gym yesterday and I will go agaqin today with Dave when he gets home from work.

I have 10 weeks max before the baby comes. This is crazy!

I am off to organize.